I've been meaning to make this journal for a while, but really got sort of out of it for a while. I was diagnosed as gluten intolerant, not officially a diagnosis for Celiac disease, but might as well be. I mean, who else would be allergic to wheat, rye, and barley? That just doesn't happen on it's own. So yeah, just imagine what all has wheat, rye, and barley in it... and then look up what all should not have wheat it in, but does. It worries me when meat has wheat in it.

I've lost 25+ pounds in the past 2 months. I thought I would like this more, but not really. I guess I got used to people not looking at me and now it's just freaky weird.

I could really hurt a few people. One person laughed when I first thought I might have CD. And countless people said, "Oh, at least it will help with your diet." You know what, you can go screw yourself running backwards. Yes, I wanted to lose some weight. I didn't want to be on a diet for the rest of my life. If that is how deep you think, that me being able to fit into a size 6 is going to make all the lifestyle changes and all of my frustration seem so easy and good, then I could strangle you. It makes me so angry, because this is so hard. It's hard having to be told that if I eat the foods I grew up eating I will die, probably in a horrible way. If I don't follow my diet I will more than likely become infertile, get diabetes, cancer, osteoporosis, and god knows what else. Basically anything bad that you can get.. I can get if I eat bread. Yet all that most people see is, "Oh, You'll be SOOO skinny."

I have at least gotten past the period where you think that someone must be playing a prank on you.. that it isn't real.. that you're going to wake up and find out that the tests were wrong and that you can go back to normal.

I actually didn't intend for this journal to be so emo. I'm doing fairly well, besides barely eating and someone stealing crap out of our yard and storage areas.

I've been reading the sookie stackhouse novels. I highly recommend this series to just about anyone. I really really like them.. I'm on the 6th book now. Favorite character is Eric.. He sort of reminds me of myself. Which is probably not a good thing. Someone read them so I have someone to talk to..

Oh and about the title.. Was reading and randomly thought of how crappy a vampire I would be, because if the celiac disease transferred over to my undead form I would be unable to eat people that had recently eaten anything with gluten in it. With my luck it probably would transfer too, seeing as how the disease is so life changing and screws up your insides. My solution to this problem would be to kidnap my victims and watch what they eat (aka starving them) for a day or so before nomming on them. One friend suggested finding a companion that I could use for blood, but that would only work in certain situations. I can see it now, someone would attack me and I would defend myself, and end up getting ill for a short while. Big puss of a vampire.. :/